So this is my first post in MONTHS!
I know! I'm so sorry I haven't updated in so long and hope everyone is doing well!
I've been having an absolute whirlwind at the moment with my personal life so it's been completely hectic, especially since my last Laparoscopy/removal of Endometriosis surgery which I had done on the 13th of January this year.
I've been really up and down in myself over the past couple of months since my surgery, especially with my depression which also resulted in me moving back home to live with my mum and the breakdown of my last relationship! But I'm still surviving! I'm still going and determined to move on into a much better place.
As it's ENDOMETRIOSIS AWARENESS MONTH I just HAD to post!
So... what's happened since my surgery?
WELL,
I had my surgery which took several hours (much longer than I expected)...I went under anaesthetic around 2.30pm and didn't get out of recovery til around 8.30/9pm at night. During the surgery I had complications with a bleed, which resulted in a haematoma which had spread across both my left and right wounds across my abdomen. To say it was agony, was an understatement. I'd been prepared for pain, discomfort and sleepless nights, but nothing could quite prepare me for some of the complications I had in the first few weeks of recovery. I don't think it helped that during the whole of my recovery I was constantly on my feet, under a lot of emotional and physical stress and was unable to sleep which just added to the over-all feeling of pure hell.
A week or two following my surgery, I had to move out of the house I was renting and into the spare room at my mum's house which put alot of physical stress on my wounds and made everything insanely painful. I don't advise anyone to move heavy furniture and a house full of belongings.... post surgery. Haha! From what I can remember (I was told post anaesthetic so it's hazy) They had found and removed more Endometriosis that had spread to my uteral sections.
I had a post op follow up consultation at the end of last month, which due to me being a complete incompetent idiot and mixing my days up, I missed and am still trying to reschedule so that I can see my specialist to get a better insight into what happened during my surgery and what the best step forward is.
Since my surgery, my pelvic pain has been worse than ever, it seems that I'm fighting a losing battle sometimes, that it's completely pointless in trying to fight against something which seems so destructive.... I think for me personally this will be the last surgery I will have for years if I can help it. I don't feel like this is the best form of action anymore and I know extensive surgeries will only add to my scar tissue and adhesions and make things worse.
I was hoping for some relief similar to my experience after my last surgery for the removal of Endometriosis but this seems to be different this time around and I guess that's something that us unlucky ladies have to accept can happen. I think it's so easy for us to cling and hold to anything that we hope will bring us some relief from the pain and the symptoms, but it doesn't always mean that this will be the case.
My stitches have recently dissolved (waheey) although i'm still looking like Frankenstein's bride, i'm getting used to my unsightly 8 scars.
Where do I go from here?
Right now, I'm not too sure. I'm due to go for more tests on my bladder to investigate further what is causing me such problems, although in all honesty, i'm not overly hopeful that I'll get any answers. I can hope though. I've decided to start back on Diannette/Co-Cyprindol due to my PCOS with my skin, weight and hair raging out of control and transforming me into a pubescent version of my 15 year old self.....not cool. So i'm hoping this will help with the symptoms of my PCOS.
As for my endo, i'm taking every day as it comes. I'm grateful for every pain free moment that I get- although these are few and far between but i'm hoping that eventually I will get some relief and for now I am popping painkillers like a lunatic. For now I'm going to try to concentrate on finishing my Fine Art degree as best as I can despite everything.
As it's Endometriosis Awareness Month, i'll be posting as often as I can with facts, memes, articles and links that will help give insight into this disease and how you can support anyone who you may know who suffers from this shit storm.
For now though,
Sending all my love Endo Sisters, you are all so increidbly brave and beautiful.
Love,
The Endo Artist.
x
